Christ, Jesus, you’re leaking titty milk!

Original Sin has it all: man fucking, child fucking, Pagan fucking, Christian fucking, and drugs. Written by Dr. DCA Hillman, the genius who penned the epic Chemical Muse and contributed the penisrific article about Priapus (, Original Sin will make you question the crumbling sandstone foundation that Christianity has been built upon.

Written in a casual prose similar to his Priapus piece, HIllman’s eloquent, avian style makes it impossible for readers to miss anything. Original Sin is organized into lunch break length chapters that take you on a leisurely tour of the ancient world starting a few years after Christ’s death through Constantine’s big fuck up. This era in history was a weird, turbulent time that was full of strife and impending doom for many of the people living then. It was also the last time that Western society saw women in a place of religious power, psychic and divinatory abilities elevated and valued as an honorable occupation, calling, and skill, and drugs used with wild abandoned. Like always, the Christians came to the party and ruined all the fun.

‘What would Jesus do with breasts?’ I certainly hope he would lick his own nipples because I can and it’s a wonderful party trick. What does Jesus with a rack have to do with anything? In Original Sin, Dr. Hillman proposes that early church fathers, such as Cyril, Ambrose, and Clement, advocated starving, raping, and then subsequently comforting street urchins as a means of conversion. (And if you don’t recognize the names of Cyril, Ambrose, and Clement, then you either didn’t pay attention during Sunday services or you attended an uneducated church in your previous life as a Christian. In either event, hit up Wikipedia.) Who knew that ancient Christians understood the complexities of Stockholm Syndrome? Hillman surmises that the early leaders did this in part because Jesus was a pedophile and that he was also a hermaphrodite with a uterus. So, Dr. Hillman, did Jesus menstruate? And if so, what brand of feminine products does he want us to use today? (WWJU: What would Jesus use?)

Like a good cock teasing Tri-Delta pledge, Dr. Hillman gives lots of coy hints and promises through out the book, but you have to wait to the very end of the before he blows you hard with the down and dirty details. However, in the preceding chapters, he writes about the titillating lives and practices of the various ecstatic religions and oracular orders that inhabited Rome during the early Christian Era. I’d be interested to see Dr. Hillman publish a well-researched book on the subject aimed at modern Pagans (hint, hint). It would be an invaluable resource to the Hellenic Recon community and to the Pagan community at large.

The media has criticized Dr. Hillman for his lack of end notes, citations, and reference lists in Original Sin. Dr. Hillman assured me that all the research and scholarship is above board and that he can produce a bibliography on command. According to him, Ronin Publishing discouraged him from including the normal scholarly citations due to the perceived intolerance of the general American non-fiction market. I think that view is preposterous and something that Ronin should consider rethinking. Never underestimate the educational level or expectations of your target market. Despite the criticisms, Hillman has included some in text references to support his research, but they are as slippery as the well-oiled little boys that Ambrose would butt fuck. If you’re curious to see the evidence for yourself, slip on your deerstalker hat, open up Google, and keep a highlighter handy as you read Original Sin. I did.

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If you only buy one book this year…buy this one!, Feed Your Head, Part 3

If your interest has been ignited by this series and you’re looking for a good resource to add to your library, let me suggest The Magical and Ritual Use of Herbs by Richard Alan Miller.

Richard Alan Miller is an old hippie who was smart enough to go to college and become a physicist, a bio-chemist, and an herbalist before he fried his brain (unlike other old hippies that I know).  He is also a Pagan who feels that it’s ridiculous for the American government to allow Native Americans the legal use of peyote in religious ritual but not Wiccans and other “legal” nature based religions.  This is a stance that I strongly agree with.  While there’s not an unbroken lineage between the Earth-based religions of today and the religions of history, our modern Pagan paths are based on the practices of the ancients, and they used drugs as part of their religious ceremonies.  If I want to have a good time I’ll get drunk or stoned, not spend an hour or more preparing peyote and then spending several more hours trying to force myself not to vomit as I hallucinate and commune with the Lord and Lady, wondering if the ants I feel on my skin are real or fake.  Despite the ants and the nausea, the other experiences that I get from taking a substance like peyote are meaningful to me and my religious path and should be legal for anyone who wants to experience it.

Miller also views these plants and substances used in ritual as “sacraments,” which is similar to the way that many Central and South American native groups view them.  These groups often view the plant’s spirit as a deity that you are taking into your body and asking to become one with you.  It’s a whole other form of aspecting.  Miller is also cool because he is very prompt about returning emailed questions from readers about dosage and recipe substitution.  He replied to me within 24 hours with out having ever met me.  He’s that dedicated.

The book is very easy to use.  If you don’t want to read the whole work, you don’t have to.  The book starts off with an intro into ritual and magic for new Pagans or non-Pagans who are reading the book (I have a feeling that a lot of anthropology classes probably assign this book as a companion reference to Castaneda’s questionable Don Juan series (beware of brujas, sparkling crows, and dogs that want to piss on you)).

The book is then divided into sections: stimulants, depressants, narcotics, and hallucinogens.  There is also a quick reference chart at the end of the book which is really handy because we all know that Pagans are too lazy now to actually learn and memorize stuff (or as my partner claims “too busy”).  Each plant entry contains an excellent line drawing of the plant that is good enough to identify a majority of the entries from nature, sacrament type, Latin and common names for the plant, the location where the plant grows wild, the habitat where you can find the plant, a botanical description, the history of use, the chemical make-up with diagrams, the primary effects, how to prepare the sacrament, ideas for ritual use, and any precautions that the user should keep in mind.  Miller’s prose is not boring or overly scholarly.

Most of the plants that Miller covers in his book are legal (more or less) in most states in the US.  Some of the plants do fall into gray areas, so do your homework.  ”I didn’t know” never seems to work as a legal defense.  Some of the plants are exotics that can easily be ordered online or found in local herb and health food stores, but many of them can be found for free in wild places or cultivated.  Passion Flowers, lobelia, scullcap, Mormon Tea, valerian, wild lettuce, wormwood, calamus, morning glories, psilocyben, and datura (thorn apple or jimson weed) are all often found in gardens, pastures, and roadsides.  Check out from the library a field guide for wild plants in your area and have fun harvesting.

I use my copy of The Magical and Ritual Use of Herbs all the time.  If you’re willing to shell out $15 for some book from Llewellyn, then you should definitely spring for this book.  If you’re too poor or cheap to buy it, well there’s always Tortuga.

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Act how you are: a book review of “Give”

Give ( is a free e-book written by Jeff Mach, who is a Pagan that follows a Druid (ADF) and Discordian path. When Mach first entered “the scene”, many people mistook him for a submissive. His true inclinations were far from being submissive.  Give was written as a way to deal with his dominant tendencies while in a vanilla relationship (a relationship he has not been in for some time).  According to his website, Mach wants to “see what they [the readers] think, see what connected with people, what made them upset, what perhaps inspired thoughts or new ideas.”

While on the surface, this self-reflective piece with a slight stream-of-consciousness current running through it is about submission through a dom/me’s eyes, it isn’t much of a stretch to see how the themes and exercises covered in the book can be applied to a person’s relationship with their chosen deities. “Give” is organized in such a way that it can be read straight through or slowly, piece by piece as each exercise is tried out. In between the exercises, Mach has included anecdotes of his experience as a dom and bits of dialogue with an unnamed sub.

Some of the exercises, such as “Bow your head,” “Let Go,” “Focus,” “Gone,” should be adapted for perspective clergy to try before ordination. While a lot of Pagans are bothered by the idea of being submissive to a deity, the act of worship itself is a submissive act (, ). This is especially true if you are answering the call to become clergy. If there is no call to serve, then chances are that you really have no business being ordained and are just doing so to have your ego stroked.

“Give” is a good read for submissive and dom(me) a like. It’s also a good read for those who are not into D/S but are curious about submission in general. Dom(me)s remember this: Respect your subs. If you don’t, one day they won’t be there. While you may not need them for sex because you can masturbate, domination doesn’t really work on your own hand or sex toy like it does with a nice pliable sub!

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To Hunt the Cunt and Other Country Matters, Part 4: Don’t tan me like that!

Mood music as you read: Dark as a Dungeon (really click this to look inside)

Trapping is a sensitive, divisive subject.  Most people either recoil when you talk about animal trapping (especially using traps that are not live traps), or people will vehemently defend their right to trap.  And to be honest, personally, I’m torn.  I am intimate with trapping, but I numb myself to the necessary grim reality of the practice to be able to continue my intimacy.

Most of the animals that are fur bearers in the United States are not eaten; they’re only harvested for their fur.  That’s not to say that some trappers don’t also eat the animal, but it’s not the norm.  Animals who are caught in traps are sometimes shot, but they are usually killed with a blow to the head  with a blunt object–like a baseball bat or an ax handle.  With skunks, the animal must first be hit in the middle of its back so that the spine is broken and it cannot spray the trapper before it’s finally killed.

Some traps are laid with bait, but some traps are simple hidden in high traffic areas (like on the way to a watering hole).  Because of this and the fact that the trapper has little control over which animal actually becomes trapped, trapping carries its own unique Karmic price.  If the trapper traps something, like a raccoon, that is edible and he or she decides to eat it, then karmically speaking, things aren’t so heavy because all the parts are being used.  If a trapper doesn’t use the meat, obviously there’s instant karmic ripples due to the waste.  There’s also the Karma of laying a trap that the animal has little choice about stepping into.  If the trap is in plain view, whether it’s baited or not, there’s still some choice in the matter.  If the trap is hidden under water or leaf litter (as is very common and is why most traps appear rusty) and it’s on a path that the animal would naturally follow, there’s no choice at all.  Also, one must consider the need of a warm pelt versus the want of a warm pelt.

So where does that leave us as Pagans.  Having a blanket statement of “trapping is wrong and should be made illegal” is not the answer.  Obviously, trapping goes against the Wiccan Rede, but not all Pagans follow the Rede, and it is rarely interpreted the same way twice.  Think about all the Pagans that like to have an Arctic fox tail tied to their asses at festivals and events.  Most of those tails came from animals on fur farms.  Are fur farms really any better than trapping?  Is it better to wear the tail of an animal from a fur farm as opposed to one given to you by a trapper?  Something to ponder for a future entry.

Prolific zombie, steampunk, weird West, and Pagan author, Tonia Brown, has taken on the issue of trapping in her novel Skin Trade, which was published earlier this year.  Skin Trade is set in the second half of the nineteenth century, after the Great Undead Uprising of 1870.  Once again our government has fucked up.  In an attempt to control Native American populations (a la small pox blankets), a virus has been introduced that has wiped out most of the Native American population and a good portion of the settlers in the West.  The Badlands are now zombie central, and the government and army have now allowed trappers into the area. Sounds a lot like how DNR is handling the coyote outbreak.

So what do you do with a trapped zombie?  You dispatch it, of course, and tan its hide.  Just like the Nazis and ancient grimoire makers, Americans now see zombie skin as a fine luxury item.

Some may read this story simply as a good weird West or zombie story.  Others may read this as a story about a troubled girl coming into womanhood in uncertain times and draw all kinds of parallels between today’s young ladies and Samantha Martin.  I, however, see this as a story about a little whore being faced with yet another unpleasant side of humanity, and having to deal with the fact that she wishes she had a penis a majority of the time.  Freud, you have it all wrong.  Penis envy occurs when you need to aim urine into a trap, and you’re tired of always having to spread your legs.

If you’re even vaguely interested in trapping and the humanity behind it, then join Tonia Brown’s ragtag team of little whores, ex-slaves, milk sops, and sadistic tyrants on a fast paced romp through the Badlands in Skin Trade.  (Oh, and there’s a goat in there too!)

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“Dark Moon Rising” A book review and my thoughts on the work

Clicking to look inside won’t help anything.

     Dark Moon Rising, written by Raven Kaldera, is a really good book.  However, it’s not a great book.  The main reason why it’s not a great book is because Raven Kaldera invited his friends and associates to contribute chapters, essays, rituals, and poems to his book.  Many of these contributions weakened his original work, especially the essays contributed by the famed Morning Glory Zell (she’s still white bread).  It would have been better if these contributions had been collected into a slimmer companion volume or into an appendix section.   There are also some line editing issues that seem to be the hallmark of cottage and vanity presses (of which Asphodel Press is one).
These issues aside, there is a lot of good information in this book that will be genuinely helpful to folks. [I've had several readers tell me what an invaluable resource this book has been to them.]  If you are new to either or both S&M or Paganism, I would recommend reading a general how-to book for both subjects before reading this book.  Kaldera does his best to provide definitions, but being unsure of what the jargon means will definitely diminish the full effect of the material.  For a short suggested reading list, please check out my blog entry entitled “Sadomasochism, Pain, and Wicca/Paganism“.
While almost everything presented in the book can apply or be altered to fit any tradition, Kaldera is of the Northern  Tradition Shamanistic path, which should be remembered when reading his anecdotes.  To be honest, I don’t have a firm understanding of what the tenets of that path are, but it seems like it’s similar to Asatru, but not really.
The title of the book comes from the Mabon Wild Hunt ritual that he has included in the book.  I have to say that out of all the rituals that are in the book, the Mabon ritual is the only one that really intrigued me and made me wet to enact it.  It was the only one that seemed like it would fulfill my personal needs and desires.  That’s not to say that the other rituals aren’t good; they’re just not what I’m looking for. [As you may remember, I'm not really into heavily scripted rituals, and a lot of his rituals are heavily scripted.]

     To give you a better idea of whether this book would be a good buy for you, I’m going to outline the chapters.  The book is broken up into six parts, multiple chapters and sections, and interspersed with photos from Shibari-Do practitioner Bridgett Harrington.  Some of the photos were nice, a few were stimulating, but most I would have traded out for others.  I’m also not really taken with the poems included in the book.  Perhaps they should have been in an appendix.  They kind of just left me cold, and not in a fun way.
Part I: Introduction and Definitions
“The Ordeal Path”  This is the intro.  You should always read intros unless it’s to The Scarlet Letter.  The intro to that book can be summed up in a paragraph.  And in case you haven’t read The Scarlet Letter, it’s got some great masochistic elements.
“Words of Power”  Read this if you’re new to things.  Skim this if you’re not.
Part II: Sacred Pain
“Sacred Pain”  This is more background information on using pain in ritual.  It has some nice anecdotes in it that almost verge on being strokable.  If you’re new, read it completely, some sections twice; if you’re experienced, just read the stuff in italics.
“An Intimate Look at Ritual Pain”  This is a section written by a “friend” and not Kaldera himself.  It’s not a great section, but the anecdotes in it are worth a read.
“Dark Ecstasy”  Skip it.  It’s not a Kaldera chapter.
“The Many Paths of Earthly Bondage”  Even though this chapter isn’t written by Kaldera, it did have some interesting thoughts on bondage that were interesting to me, and I’m sure very helpful to new folks.
“Between Earth and Sky”  This chapter is all about hook suspension and is written by Kaldera but with many anecdotes from others.  I have to admit that while rope suspension is absolutely lovely, hook suspension for many years completely terrified me and to some extent I viewed it with disgust.  It wasn’t anything personal to the folks who practice it; it just was so not for me or in my realm of thinking.  However, after reading this chapter and some work that I’ve done this year with the Descent of the Goddess, I think I’m almost ready to don lapis beads and hang for a bit.  It still terrifies me, but that’s part of the allure.
“Chain of Command Part I”  This section is not by Kaldera, and it did nothing for me.  It should have been in an appendix.  It kind of pissed me off to have to read it in amongst the other chapters.
“Silence” is also not a Kaldera chapter, but it’s skim worthy.
“Sacred Toys, Holy Tools”  This chapter is by Kaldera.  In it he offers a refreshing perspective on how the things that most people consider sex toys can be transformed into consecrated ritual tools.
Most BDSM folk refer to their tools as “toys”, just as they refer to some serious sensation work as “play”, largely because they want to minimize the “scary” aspect of these practices, and make them seem light and fun, so that outsiders will not be frightened.  Most Neo-Pagans refer to their various magical tchotchkas as “tools”, even when they don’t actually use them for any purpose except decoration and showing off.  Personally, I’d like to see people in both communities being a lot more clear about what’s a toy and what’s a tool.  Certainly those of us who cross both have no excuse.
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“The Invisible Toybox”  The chapter by Kaldera has a lot of really neat ideas in it.  Yes, I read it twice!  I’ve also tried out some of the suggestions, and they work pretty well.  Read it a time or two and adapt the suggestions into your own practice.
“Opening Up”  This chapter may be something you find useful and then again you may not find it useful.  It really depends on what your kink is and how “open” you already feel and want to be.  Definitely read it and decide for yourself.
Part III: Journey to the Underworld
“Journey to the Underworld”  This chapter is a good chapter, but not a great chapter.  I’d describe it as a piece meal chapter.  Some stuff you may want to slow down to read, while you may skim through other sections.
“Staging Sacredness”  This chapter is a good introduction to constructing a BDSM ritual for beginners and it’s a good review for veterns.  It contains some helpful check lists and things to consider, like children and AIDS.
“Master of the Underworld”  In this chapter Kaldera discusses more in depth his own experiences on the Ordeal Path, but he also touches on some truths about being a Dom that would be insightful for Dom/mes and Subs alike.
“Divine Intervention”  I’m not sure who wrote this chapter, but I would either skip it, skim it, or jerk off to it.
“The Way of the Ordeal Master”  This chapter is a good read for folks who are thinking about being a dominant in a Pagan setting or for folks who are just curious about what their Dom is thinking.
“Dark Tantra”  Skip this chapter.  It’s a waste.
“Q-Moon’s Ordeal Path Ritual”  I’m not even sure why the pages for this section where expended.
“The Dark Moon Rising Mabon Ritual”  As you may remember from above, I really enjoyed this ritual.  A definite read.
“Baphomet and Babalon Rite” -”Ordeal-Ritual of Dedication to Lilith”  These chapters did nothing for me, but they’re worth skimming.
“The Descent of Inanna Ritual”  This was an interesting read.  I have trouble visualizing how this ritual could possibly work in reality since it’s so complicated, but it got points for being graphic.
“John Barleycorn”  I like my “Threshing the Corn Mother” ritual better.

“Shadow Play”  This section sounds like it was written by somebody in the Reclaiming Tradition, although I assume it was written by Kaldera.  I would skim it.  I would only spend serious time on it if you’re all about your inner demons and doing therapy and stuff.  Personally, I’d prefer thirty minutes under a stout flogger to talking to a therapist.

“Chaining Fenris” This ritual goes with the above chapter.  Again, flog me please and get it over with.
Part IV: The Path of Service and Mastery
“The Path of Service and Mastery”  This chapter discusses some serious ethical and personal points.  It’s a definite read.
“Sacred Masks”  This chapter explores the different archetypes that are encountered in most people’s BDSM experience.  I really liked it.  It deconstructed things in a way I had not previously considered, and the ways that the archetypes are arranged make it easy to evaluate your BDSM preferences and experiences.
“Being the Mirror”  This chapter is written by Kaldera’s boy, Joshua, and offers insight into Kaldera’s personal BDSM spiritual life and gives tips for Spiritual subs.  I really like the prayer at the end.
“Don’t Break the Spirit”  This chapter may appeal to Dom/mes more than subs.  It’s at least skim worthy.  I would skip to the section that discusses words of power, touch, and ritual.
“Shaman’s Boy”  This chapter is also written by Joshua and offers another glimpse into Kaldera’s personal life.
“Dedication to Sacred Service”-”Oath of Service”  These are some self dedication rituals.  I would personally only use them as a source for ideas, not verbatim.
Part V:  Guardians of the Gate
This whole section, that is made of chapters of varying degrees of great writing and annoying chatter.  It can be summed up with this phrase:  You are your deity’s bitch.  Deal with it.
Part IV:  This Leather Pagan Tribe
This section is just a long poem, that after I read the first stanza, I put the book down.  I would have left it out.
As I said before, I did like the book and I found some sections extremely interesting and helpful.  Other sections I wish had not been included.  I was surprised by what wasn’t included in the book.  I can only assume that things like fire and electrical play were not included because Kaldera doesn’t work with those techniques and doesn’t know anyone else who does either.
So, in conclusion, there’s enough good stuff in the book to make it worth the purchase price.